Control (Poem posted on Cosmofunnel)

"I know who I want to be, I know what I want to see, What I want to feel. And I would like to try and see you take, Take it all away from me, Like it's something you can just steal.

I've got a little too much hope, Too much for you to take, This is heavy load, Are you sure it's what you want to take? You might just break.

You've got a little way, Of letting your mouth say, Stupid little things. Before - they cut me like a knife, I let it rule my life, Like it meant everything.

But I don't want that now, It made me realize, It made me see the light somehow, It's not right, And I can do what I want with my life.

This is how it is now, And I have found, That the prettiest feelings can come out of the dark, Out of a warn out heart.

And I've let you push me on the curb, Like it's what I deserve, That I'm mean to just watch, Whether I like it or not. But the last straw has blown, I'm not having any of this anymore, I'm control."

Reflection/After Thoughts: It takes someone an immense amount of strength to let go of the pain that someone put you through. It takes an even greater amount of courage to not only let go, but to forgive someone entirely for that damaging position they put you in. That's real resiliency right there. It's difficult to do when you feel traumatized, and broken. But finding that inner strength, acknowledging that it happened, and reassuring yourself that your safe now, gives you the validation you need to forgive, and move on.

~Charlotte P. (Personal Blogger and Establisher of "Is This A Reality Or A Delusion?")